Excited, nervous, all all things in between

I was able to go to church this morning. It was great and wonderful to worship at church and take communion. We sang one of my favorite hymns "Take and Eat" I was also reminded why the hymn in my supplement was color coded. its hard to keep track on what line you are singing. I color coded mine when I would canter at church. 

Monday I go back to work. I'm excited and nervous. It's like the first day of school all over again. I have to make sure I have my bag packed, lunch made. 

I have things planned to do at school. I also have paperwork stuff to do. 

It has been two months since I have been at either of my schools.  Will I have the energy to do everything I need to do? Will I be able to find everything? Will people remember who I am? I had a good friend give me a scarf that I am going to wear on my first day back. I probably will do a really bad job tying it, but it is a Bon Jovi scarf. Have I mentioned I like to listen to Bon Jovi? I even named my dog after him, Which confuses everyone because Jon Bon Jovi is a guy and my dog Jovi is a girl. The name fits her. 

Poor Jovi, she is going to be home. I can't sneak her into school. Really I probably could, she could just sleep under my desk all day. She would be content.  

Today I planted flowers. It was so great to play in the dirt. I now have pretty flowers in containers in my courtyard and my patio. I made sure to not overdo it and before I went out I put sunscreen on my head. I was told I could get sunburn even if I was wearing a hat or cap or scarf. 

One thing I have been meaning to address and is very important. 

And it was the one thing I didn't realize about chemo. It really does impact your memory. I will confess that my memory wasn't that terrific when I started this process, it has gotten worse. So if you're thinking ....Why didn't Shelly get back to me? or Why didn't Shelly remember that?? I have lost and found so many things around the house it isn't funny anymore. I have gone to the store for an item and left without buying what I needed. So now I have an app on my phone to help and post it notes also. 

I better get going. Tomorrow is a big day!